"& I Don't Feel Like I'm Falling..."

I've never realised how pretty the stars look like on the motorway.

My head was leaning on the side and looking up, it was amazing to see a dark blue sky dotted with white lights so bright that they pulsed and intensified everytime I looked up. It had been a long day, so it was so peaceful to just look at them and contemplate things. I mean, I know I'm the deep-thinker when it comes to things like this. Ayesha and Rabiah were just teasing about my fascination, but I didn't mind. They're my sisters-that's what they're supposed to do,right?Otherwise it would feel strange if they didn't.

I've realised that whilst I don't do it intentionally, sometimes I push Rabiah away. And I'm ashamed of it, because she's my little sister and I'm meant to be one of her rolemodels-someone who she can turn to and things. Sure, we all have our mum, but she's also meant to have me and Ayesha. I saw that yesterday when Ayesha was being an idiot towards her and I frowned, realising that whilst she's considered mature now, she's still young. So I made Aysh apologise to her, and she actually did.(: It's nice when we all listen to each other.

Anyway, we were on the motorway because of my first cousin's wedding ceremonies in Nottingham. Waa. They're long, and we have to get all dolled-up and things. It's...tiring.But it makes you question what the bride and grrom's family has to do, in preparation and things. Anyway, it was the Mehndi,which my mum says is actually like a Hen Night which made me laugh, and we have to,in pairs, go and feed her mataii and also put some mehndi on her hand. Ayesha and I did it, and you could tell Rosie was already sick of having to eat so much mataii, but that's tradition.(:

And the day after that was the Nikhaa, which is when you sign the papers saying you're married.

I actually have two more of those ceremonies coming up again,which is for the groom's side, and two parties and then another wedding which is my uncles. Stressing.:/

I never expected my Summer to be so...wedding-filled, since that's the only way to describe it. I had already planned me finishing off the novel,Questions & Answers.

But everytime I try, I just...can't. I've no idea why either! I mean, there's nothing I enjoy like getting lost in Yasmina's mind. Which is my sisters, so I know it pretty well. I pride myself on that. Anyway, I've done 154 pages and that's half-way to 200, but I have got to stop thinking that that's enough, and get side-tracked.
I dream about my characters all the time and what with watching the latest Harry Potter movie, I squealed at Blaise Zabini and his perfect Dean face! Anyway, note to self-get back on the novel wagon!!!

Oh my god, Kate loved her birthday present.:') Well, why wouldn't she? I made her a Jasper shirt fgs.:D Oh yeah, I totally understand her.(; I mean, watching trailers at the beginning of HP, I realised how much we have in common, and she's a sweet girl. And Alex,Rosie,Sheereen and Danielle make me realise how much my friends mean to me.<33

I'm not sure whether to make amends with Ayesha or not. I'm trying, because that's what being a good Muslim is, putting the past behind you and trying to please people even if it doesn't please yourself,you know? Allah will always reward you.
And I miss her. Sure, it wasn't plain-sailing, but we had a good time. I know her better than I know myself. So that's it. I'm planning one day where we can catch up properly.

I have a sudden obsession with The Killers,Asher Roth,and Jonas Brothers. Brandon Flowers is an amazing man,Asher is funny yet confusing and JoBro's are so charismatic!

To Kill A Mockingbird= An amazing book that everyone should read. I am so happy Miss Lamping bought this for me and I'm going to thank her for it after the holidays because she sure does know which books her students will enjoy! Harper Lee makes everything so beautiful,poignant, and then warm humour slaps you in the face so quickly, so suddenly, that you just smile. It's amazing. I don't want to finish it!

Mosque Exams means lots of studyuing which is what I am going to do, even on the road trips to Nottingham.
Ha! I have a lot of things to rant about, but I think this is enough.

Salutations,readers.
/Mariam.<3